bull shit

There are a few things in life that are just shitty. Not necessarily right or wrong, just shit. One of my oldest friends and roommate in college was in a relationship for six years that ended almost exactly one year ago this month. . . and today she finds out that he is engaged. I have very voyeurism-istic qualities and am not afraid to search out information on someone via the internet. I mean seriously, isn't that what it is for anyways? So I get on the www and I find the d-bag and his fiance's wedding registries. Now at this point, I know you are saying, this is stupid. . . but it pisses me off. My dear friend Ry spent six years in a relationship with this jackass and six months after they break up, he's engaged. Bull shit. Most marriages don't last six years. So back to the wedding registries I am looking through the wine glasses, linens, shower curtains and kitchen utensils and I find this.

This, my good friends is a fish bowl night light. Yep. My thoughts exactly. Not really relative to the rant, other than it just pisses me off that someone has the right to register for stupid stuff. Just like it pisses me off that people can treat other people in whatever way they deem necessary, and move right on with their life as if six years of their life was non existent.

Sometimes the bigger picture sucks. I know we all try to be positive and forward in thinking, but when things like this happen. . . well it's just not right. There is no doubt in my mind that Ry got the better end of the deal. Starting with the fact that she will not get up in the middle of the night and see this piece of made in taiwan crap in her bathroom. However, it doesn't make it any easier to swallow the pill that the love of her life (up until this point) didn't think she was good enough. I've had a very small taste of that medicine and it's soul crushing. I know life is so much more than broken relationships. We have other things to concern ourselves with, but when the basics aren't so basic, nothing makes sense.

To my friend Ryann who reached for the stars and grasped one. . . you walked into my life a bright and shiny college student from nowhere Missouri. . . we've come such a long way. You have left your fingerprints on my heart by always believing in yourself, even when the easy thing to do would be to quit. Congratulations on making your dreams come true. Best of luck to you in your next adventure. Don't forget. . . when you get out of school. FIJI. I'm counting on you. *wink*